BENEATH…

MY BODY IS HOLDING ONTO

Childhood Memories
this little mind carry them around
the bliss and contentment
the simplicity…

Moments that only mean so much to me
shared as a secret and saved in the folders of my mind
wishing someday you’ll hear about it too
and saying it was worth the wait

These scars which are ugly
that made me insecure and lose hope for beauty
it made me ask Lord why me
but it’s a mark of a greater story
about the Savior who gave me new life and set me free

My Body is Holding on to Abba’s embrace
I can feel the warmth, and the everlasting peace

whom then shall I fear? whom then shall I fear?

Truth Thursdays # 1: IDENTITY

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MY BODY IS HOLDING BACK ON

words that warm my heart
affirmation that make me feel I’m lovely
expressions of care that sweep me away

Coz I’m afraid that they aren’t true

but a disguise, a gush for the moment
Til they see somebody better and I’m just a wind that passed them by
Thus, I shrug, sometimes ignore, and disagree

couples that show affection
the giggles, the chasing of a lover

Coz I know that when they don’t feel like giggling anymore
they can simply let go of the important thing and let some random moment
spur a craving for something that would confuse them even more
Thus, I pretend I didn’t see, say they didn’t exist.

I used to be confident about who I am
and I confess some situations
taught me to hold back on

the belief that I can do it, and I’m well
and now my Body is Holding Back
and I hear apathy whispering…

Truth Thursdays # 2: IDENTITY

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MY WORRIES TODAY

I worry that what I did the last few days was just a proclamation of a desire to start anew

I worry that the boy would feel I avoid him

I worry that my eyes would speak for me

I worry that after laying all my worries at the feet of Jesus last night…
I would pick them up today and want to be in control again

And now I hear Abba calling…
BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD
Psalm 46:10

“Lord, take this space between us and fill it up…”

Truth Thursdays # 3: IDENTITY